I will be the first to dominate this threat with overwhelming overshare, because it is all about me and my needs and desires right so i will vent. Forget about the fantasy I am not in the mood to play your games it is about me and my needs right now. Do you want to see if I am deserving hell yes I am a single mother of two boys working my ass off every day. You want me to play your little fetish games and free phone sex, I have better things to do you should pay me to see my blog as far as I am concerned right now. I know a good domme doesn't take out her anger and frustration out on her subs in play but we aren't playing right now. It is about me and how I feel and I feel like I don't need to prove shit to anyone I know I am genuine. You need to prove yourself to me prove that you are worthy of my time and interest. Compliments in words are fine and dandy sometimes but today I want cash to make me feel better. I want to be showered in gifts, and praised as  the queen that i know that I am . I am not a door mat to be used and abused over and over again. 

Where I am mentally right now: I am an honest open and giving person actually being selfish isnt something I aspire to on the daily. I am giving to a fault and some consider me a door mat. Forget that. I think those who see me as a door mat are insignificant little spits. Being the giving person that I am I offered my play apartment to my "friend" who said she wanted to get away from her abusive environment. I gave her the keys and said no smoking no pets and no one but you. I call her and tell her i want to use the place for a client she says she has family coming over. ok i will respect that. you need your coping time and space after a trauma. She lied to me. She gave my keys to her cousin so she says and leaves to Mentor, Ohio to work with some escort agency. Either way it goes. she violated my trust if she left or is lying about leaving to cover up the fact that when i went back to the apt. my pots, pans,dishes, kitchen utensils, towels, play computer and external cd drive along with some books,clothes, my dragon figurine and feng shui kit all gone. place trashed. what dishes were left are dirty and in the sink along with rotten maggot covered bananas, cat shit all over and the room where she politely placed the rest of my sons clothes and my important papers is covered in cat piss and the bathroom toilet (eww). WTF.

She has the nerve to tell me that my things in MY Apartment are not her responsibility. AM I CRAZY? She has to be.

My sister says that I need to be more selfish so, I am trying to find money slaves to achieve my financial goals. I am just tired of busting my ass to help people who turn around and take advantage of me I deserve to be spoiled dang it. I deserve to sit on my behind and have things done for me.

-buy a house for me my sister my father and amass a real estate portfolio of at least 10 properties at a time. for living and playing
-3 million in the bank accumulating f-ing dust
- a car for me that i want ( it can sit and collect dust for all i care I want it) and a car that is practical for me and my two kids
- i need a new wardrobe. she stole my clothes too!
-i want every pair of shoes i can imagine.
-i want every corset I think is cute
- i want every bra and panty set my slave likes i hate underwear you have to give to get right
-i want to wake up tomorrow and see that fake friend in jail.

It is about me right I want money slaves coming out the wood work Cockhold slaves writhing in agony for my attention.